I am somehow unique

2010-05-29T23:46:00.000-07:00

Yeah finally posting something:) so hi everybody holidays come so quickly and so does homework tagging along. I find it like a price tag attached to an item? OK random. so many things to say cos so long never posted. Ok starting with holidays, not many guides meetings thankfully so can rest more. My mum kept telling me to exercise and stuff, grow taller which I wish I can. Desperately. Catching up with studies. 'Ran' (meaning wbrisk walking including occasional sprints)a few times in the park. Somehow I enjoyed it, I can blank out from the worries of life, think about some people around me, parents, friends, life. How I want it to be and yet my plans always gets messed up like the time I always want a change when I come back to school after a holiday. Physical plus mental change kinda thing. Listening to Taylor Swift's album Fearless! I finally realise that I love track 10 sooo much! The song name is 'The way I love you'. The reason for likeing her songs that much is because her songs are really comforting. Sometimes when I feel like screaming, yelling and pucnching people in their faces , just fustrated then I just lay on my bed and listen. It really does magic. :) Misses school and friends. Misses getting teased. Misses teachers. Feel like going to catch movies and going archade. Finding determination and the real me again...Project work is crushing me. Patiently waiting for the release of Eclipse. Yay:) Suddenly got an urge to go back to sec one to change my cca to something related to sports. I just simply love the feeling of winning, team-spirit and sweating happily. (Weird) Btw I spotted a baby bird, not really baby cos it has grown feathers. I tried to feed it with water but it 'ran' and 'hopped' away and tao me. Then I got fustrated, and I went home. I tried ok? Couldn't sleep one night cos I was worried that a cat will do harm to it. My new neighbourhood has a gang of four cats always together, patroling around. Later maybe checking on the bird.

2010-02-06T05:01:00.000-08:00

Hello:) sorry for not posting for like in a million years. Wish everone a prosperous chinese new year! Um recently loads of things happen in school. Like tests and stuff... Kinda pissed of by some people.... Got stuck between friends... still fretting over birthday presents. Yearning to go chinatown to get into the chinese new year spirit. Frankly, I don't want chinese new year to come so soon, because it marks the starting of common tests. Darn! Kept telling myself to persevere, suddenly feel like I am in need to some comfort. Btw, went to see doctor and the doctor says the pain in my knees is due to the way I stand and stuff. He gave my some in soles for my feet.(Need to pay)Realised that this kind of medical stuff can really be expensive. Still think of getting a good phone. Hehe. And last but not least I went to get a haircut. Super duper short. Sigh*. I shouldnt have cut, it looks so screwed, but my head definitely feels lighter after that. Sad to say that maybe my diet is too nutritious than my hair grows like a bush, needs some trimmings occasionally. OOps gotta go see y'all next time. Btw, 1 last thing dont u ppl feel that we need an MC for the old folks home performance?

Last day of 2009

2009-12-31T06:14:00.000-08:00

Hello:) I miss school... kinda of lazy these few days... didnt had enough sleep for no reason... moving house yeah. painted my room yellow actual name in the dulux catalogue is cupcake. CUTE RIGHT? LOL. My bro went to the exteme well sort of painted his room bright orange. Orange squeeze! Just went to pray at temple. oh oh and my grandma had her room in lightish green. and the living room was light purple so is the master bedroom. These few days went to blogshops looking for a plush toy to celelbrate having a own room. But feeling like a waste of money cost like what adeline said, collects dust. But then on the other side at leas when I am feeling down, can have 'someone' to talk. Go ahead say that I am very sensitive. (sniff sniff). Last but not least congratulate sezari for winning singapore idol and wish you guys a happy new year. I am repeating it cos my tagboard which I have just tagged had some problems. So anyway happy new year. Wait for the fire crackers!

2009-11-20T02:38:00.000-08:00

Today is an okay day. Ya. What else? Hmmm... Read a book and the book is like in series and its about a girl called Ally and had loads of friends who were like super duper nice (SO JEALOUS SIA!) and then had to do a dare and stuff. Nice book. Then I had a sore neck like now. And then my thought drifted to hui ping case and had a sms from eunice. Ya my life is like so typical and boring. I buying fbt soon like tomorrow. YAY! Sorry hp.. OKay I am so not gonna buy curve cut. 1. I am on the conservative side And two its much shorter. I think I am gonna buy black and then like persuade my mum to buy another cos this year never go overseas to travel so can bargain. Haha. So wait and see. Omg so excited!

2009-11-18T22:05:00.000-08:00

Today just came back from camp and I am like so dead tired... Miss poon made us clean the guides room at night around 11 plus if I am not wrong and we have to assemble at the foyer like before 7 to march, foot drills. I keep shouting the wrong stuff. And like lub(is left), right, lub, right then i stuck my foot at the wrong timing and I think that is so irritating then made my squad do that again a few times. I am so angry with myself. A lot of things happen at camp. I made two new friends, xiao qiang, The Cockroach and xiao curl, The Millipede. Until now then i realise our school has so many of xiao qiang and curl. I even found one in 104 halved. GROSS!EWWW! OC also don't have. Probably cos we didn't noticed. For the first time in my life I won the so-called amazing race and got myself a chocolate. Before I forget, I accidentally screamed when I saw xiao qiang. (okay.. i admit i am not too polite). I am acting happy cos I emo today. I really don't feel that staying in this school cos although I have friends, I have to guess whether they are okay with me anot. And I always have to be the one who is so extra and left-out. I hate the way this is going. Sihwee like damn black face to me and tao me. I don't expect everyone to like me and its tiring. That was why I wanted to change a personality. I really cannot manage to heck care about others' thoughts and stuff. Maybe I care too much about my friends. Cos I thought that was what friends are for, to care and show concern and etc. Other than that, Hui ping is also another part cos I am worried for her cos she is sad about dancing stuff.

2009-10-31T02:38:00.000-07:00

I realized that a person must stay steadfast. I am not going to let myself hurt again. By some people. Feel so emo today, my knees prevent me from going anywhere. Hui ping they all were having fun while i was feeling so lonely. I have soo many things to say but don't feel like typing, keep on thinking about a stupid person, not boys. Currently listening to demi songs, listening to songs when i am feeling down kinda helps so i am doing that. I don't see eating food helps. Hugs and comforting words, or ven venting anger on someone maybe. But I won't do that it is unfair. Inflicting pain on others is the worst thing you can ever do, bear that in mind. Everything bad seem to happen to me this year, why can't things stay the same like they were before. Hate myself....I don't know if I should be a counsellor. Maybe I should not, I will not be able to concentrate on studies. I told my mum, she says do whatever that makes me happy.

2009-10-30T05:50:00.000-07:00

I finally realise fairytales only happen in idol dramas and shows but not in reality. So people should just wake up. I saw Ryan on the train but then i dunno if its him again. Didn't dare to ask. Where did my courage go? That time I was keeping my distance and feeling weird. 106 ppl this is a guy from school so dun get mistaken...Then there was this lady who lean on the pole but we had to grab the pole to prevent ourselves from falling down but she didnt seem to care or know. I feel so emo. People around me like have crushes, boyfriends. I feel so left-out but I really dun have one. People mistake me for who I am. I want to get rid of this body. I wanna be cool. Just for myself not for whoever else. From today, I am so gonna start saving money to buy FBT. I want to thank my friends for existing around me. Joanna, Hui Ping, Xuejing, Claice, Qiao Yuan, Yi Xuan, Wan ling, Eunice. Sorry if I nvr continue typing, if you regard me as one, then you should be in the list, sorry. No matter how they treat me, they always feel like sisters to me. Joanna maybe likes others more than me but she has once cheer me up when xj was like gonna cry because of retaining then i felt like crying also(nvr thought that I would) then she comforted me. Same for others. Eunice maybe sometimes we quarrel but she is also my bestie and sis in somw way. Thanks the boys for existing, finally 1o6. It was a good thing to get into this school.. Met loads of nice people, know what sis was like. Things i have learnt:1.fold my skirt(although not even) 2. Dun wear skyscraper socks 3. Know boys really exist and crushes do happen to girls 4. Know what a sister is like. Today last day of school and i am gonna miss it dearly. Goodbye 1o6'09 say yo to 206' 10! Hands up and waving. Leaving a trace of good memories but what happened today was not nice. Still feeling weird about boys. And being myself....

I am so not me

2009-10-29T06:23:00.000-07:00

I have so many thoughts now. I feel that I am so weird. I don't know how to be a lovable person and be myself. I can understand if ppl hates me so do i hate myself. I got a rotten personality, cant blame the hormones. I gave up on the 106 story. But I think I am so going to change, buy 1 FBT for a start, read how to be a good friend for dummies. And ppl u noe wad? Marvin stinks, he always teases me, I would like to give him a slap on his face and and a kick in the butt.

2009-10-26T06:45:00.000-07:00

Today don't feel like talking upon knowing who are the five people who will get retained...I suddenly really miss OC. I MISS EVERYONE. Today mr chan came in, he looked like he was about to cry.Made us wrote on PC book, i wrote really long for the letter but not others. I am going to continue hoping for the best. I almost cried when i saw xue jing teary eyes after school. But i managed to control myself cos since Hui Ping can face the fact bravely, I thought I should to. Had mixed feelings today. She told me wads going on. I gave her a pat and a hug. Whatever was coming might be negative but i will accept it. Maria seems emo so did hui ping and me and xue jing but joanna went so enthu. Maria said that my blog was gonna die if i don't post so I posted. He gave me a shock when he told me he read. LOL. I wish them all the best and hope Mr Chan won't dislike me as much. Really.:( Today, in conclusion, was a sad and bad, terrribly-everything-gone-wrong day.

2%Neutral 98% emo-ing

2009-10-19T04:41:00.000-07:00

Today was a bad bad day. I had a foul mood cause my grandma was sick although she claimed she felt better.
and something else which i think because i am too narrow-minded about my bro.

2009-10-16T07:53:00.000-07:00

Today was a super damn bored day. No one to talked to cos some ppl were out, a rainy day so can run or go swimming, didn't have to mood to read so pretty much nth to do.*Sigh*.Wished tat i could go to school with 106 ppl. If anyone really leaves i would really cry, but of course not in front of anyone but except junwen duh. I had this idea of making something for 106 girls but dunno if it will work out well.After all, i don't have artistic talent wadsoever. Long treatd 106 ppl like a family. I thus thought of making 106 story with the characters' names originating from the boys. Introducing the characters,......(drums pls) haha i noe i am lame, Yee Shong(the snow white), Hong Sheng (The mighty Unagi), Eun Soeng(Hairy). The others i will think of their names tomorrow.